I went through the later years of school and college knowing something wasn’t quite right. Call it a ‘full body’ feeling instead of a gut feeling. At the same time as realising this I started to develop my first super power! The ability of not making a big deal out of big problems. At first, I blamed it on ‘hormones’, even though I didn’t really understand what they were. I’d just heard that kids go through puberty and get all these funky feelings at the same time. You have a bit of a Peter Pan moment when growing up means feeling tired all the time, feeling alone but also having an urge to hide away from all social interaction. Now I still had fun with my friends, and I’d be ignorant to say I was miserable 24/7. Somethings do numb it, which looking back were the people I care about. But there was always some sort of heavy weight in my chest … sound familiar?
What was I going to do about it? NOTHING. I refused to be a burden. Those I was comfortable around had their issues and I didn’t want to add more to their plate. REALITY CHECK. Everyone has fucking issues, and actually yours and easier for them to deal with. As humans we are remarkable at helping others but not ourselves. Yet, no matter how supportive our friends, family and life we cannot open up. Let me frame it this way for you. What if it wasn’t asking for help? What if it was giving someone you care about the opportunity to learn? To grow closer to you. To make them happy. Then would it be easy? Well of course it’s not ‘easy’ … but it’s possible, right? As I’ve mentioned in some of my articles my life changed when I moved away from a toxic job and started caring for myself a little more. BUT most importantly when I opened up to those around me. I was no longer numb. Now can I make a contradictive suggestion? Don’t open up to everyone. You only need someone. It’s down to you to decide who someone is. Maybe they will just fall into your life, or it could be someone who’s been in your life from the beginning. Whether it’s a stranger, a friend, a parent, or even ME! I challenge you. Take the time in your head to answer this… If you could do one this to change your life what would it be? Then take action on it – BUT the only rule is you can’t do it alone. Prove me right. Tell me you’ve done it. Surprise me. |
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